Still playing Video Editor

Hope you all have about 7 minutes of free time, I would love you all to view my video of Sausalito Parade and Fireworks from 2005. Even though it's after the holiday, I had a chance to play and come up with something fun. So enjoy..............the next video will have original music. And since Google has bought You Tube, this may be it for us, creating without premission. It's all a wait and see situation
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jy3F5_KvFhw

When You really Blow It.........

I have done some stupid things in my life. All of which I have paid greatly for. I am pretty positive that I actually found "HIM". You know "THE GUY". Well, unknown to me I did finally meet the one person who understands me and relates to me. But the lovely curve that was thrown into the mix was mid-life. Ah, yes.....I did mentioned that wonderful stage in a previous blog. Look I had seen it in other people, I just didn't get it. So help me, I must be the most naive person on the planet. GO FIGURE.............
So here's this great guy, who's going through major crap and I just think that it's more of the same crap I've seen guys go through before............Surprise....it's real and genuine. What a huge surprise. The problem is I have been on the rollercoaster ride from hell with other men in my life. For that reason, I don't support him, I turn my back to him and figuratively I castrate the guy.
This happened at the end of Aug, and now at the end of Oct, I finally have a clue. But much too late...............he's way gone....................he's never going to talk to me or forgive me or forget that I betrayed him.
So if you are a real and genuine man, you are a rare breed. If you are sincere and you are determined to stay that way, I applaud you, I salute you, and I pay homage to you the men who are real. please let us all know you are out there, because some of us ladies who have been in the battlefields are jaded, and it's a shame.
In the meantime, if anyone has a clue, how I can make it up to this guy. How I can ever make amends to him, please feel free to let me have it, right in the kisser.
Party On

The sky is blue, the trees are changing. There is a nip in the air. Autumn is beginning to show her wonderful show of colors. So true and yet, the energy is just somewhat strange. In this little town known as "Mayberry Bizarro", the infamous borderline characters have now become chic.

I have a number of truely talented friends in the art world, who listen to their muse and patently learn their craft. The comedy is while we are working to make a change, that has already happen here.

We all know of this character, this bagabond who was known for his alleged bike thivery and his dealing with the law. One day, he started to paint. He started with scenes from San Francisco, Golden Gate Bridge, and other local landmarks.

The work was to say the lease was naive, unschooled and raw. But he continued and you can see him any day of the week, painting in the sun or rain on the street which is his home. His work has gotten better, his attitude is out there, he is a true charcater in every sense of the word. But I admire him.............I give him high marks for his continue work, for his ability to put it back in our faces, and remind us what art is all about.....................vision.

"Party on Garth. "

Still Surviving After Love & Fishing

Recently, I have ended a very special relationship. It came about when I ask him the dreaded question, "Do you Love Me?"

Ok......., I didn't get the heart felt answer I wanted. In fact he took off like a missile and disappear from the planet Earth. As someone who doesn't fall lightly, definitely not in a rut but in a trench. I realize that I had to climb the walls of that trench and come up to the real world.

I found myself, rethinking who I was, and what did I do to drive him away? After many hours of self doubt and thinking I was the lowest thing on the planet, I got angry (another stage of healing). And with my anger, I realized I wanted to find him. I wanted him to hurt as much as I did. So grabbing my trusty computer and putting forth my most valiant effort, I decided do or die I would find him.

Many hours of cruising different web sites, searching high and low. I got enough information to know that he is alive and well and living in Washington State, looking for employment. (By the way "hi" and if you read this blog and you know who you are, I do know where you are and I hope the fishing is great.)

The thing is great and once you go through this garbage, you feel release. And so on this night I do. The funny thing, my best friends who are single, both male and female, have decided in this stage of life they would rather stay out of all tender relationships. They would rather not spend the energy to try and make any romantic relationship work. They are comfortable with themselves and their lives and why change? And these are really great people, attractive , witty, smart, and absolutely scared to death that they might get involved enough to get hurt. Because as we all know pain doesn't get easier to deal with. HEY.........out there, out in cyber space........if all of us shut down, then what ??????????
We become lock into our computers because that's the only thing we can relate to. COME ON every one, let's not forget to connect...to forge ahead and live our lives to the max.........so go ahead and do some sky diving, surf the big waves, ride a motorcyle, climb Mt. Everest or enjoy a quiet moment at the lake fishing.

Keeping it real.

I suppose after seeing many of my relatives go through it and seeing my co-workers go through it, it was eventual that it is my turn. Yes......it's here (MID-LIFE CRISIS).

I didn't realized that I would be reduced to this till I was watching Rock Star/SuperNova program. I 'm checking out these kids and to be honest they are kids to me, and I'm thinking about that I am 46........ Jesus, when my Mom was 46, she drove us crazy. She was so conservative and just the nice Mrs. Cleaver. Yeesh....

So I went out and bought flaming red dye for my hair, and decided that I wasn't going to feel bad about this age or any age for that matter. So after dying my hair red, and since it was already dyed black (I basically have red roots, with red highlights) the dye didn't take as good as it should. That's the bad side, the good side is it looks great. A bit funky.

Next stage is to build up my body again and not feel like this is mid-life. But maybe just the start of adulthood. About time, took me too long to get here. So don't get blue , don't get depress, just change something, anything and you'll have much more fun................Party On Garth

Movie making just got easier.

I just recently got back on line after 2 years. Reason being, I had some issues with technical support and things like that. But while I have been away, people who have no clue about computers have gotten their own web sites and are beginning to do things. My friend Jon who is rather a talented guy, has set up his web site for all of us to enjoy www.jonsturdevantphoto.com

I got carried away and took his photos of fireworks and made a movie. Using a program known as Arc/Showbiz. I was able to lay down images, sound track and effects. I enjoyed doing this so well that I made Jon a copy of the finish product. He loved it. Which took me totally be surprise.

This is the best time of year to see more of Jon's work. Check out his web site after the 4th and you should see new work. He usually gets involved and takes about 200 to 300 photos of 4th of July celebration or the actual fire works you can see from San Francisco.

Who exactly is graduating?

It's a normal part of our life, that by this time each year another class has risen to the rant of adulthood and graduated. But what isn't spoken nor hinted to, is the sense of release from parents all over this land. A prevailing wind is fresh with the sighs of each Mom and Dad as they realized that for better or worst Junior is on his way to conquring the world.

There is a sense of release, as you realized that your job is done. And the hardest part comes to a head. Will all your hard work go to waste or did these amazing little sponges listen to anything you said. It's a tough call and I suppose if I was a betting person I would give it a 50/50 chance that they did.

In the meantime, the attitude that they have and the self center thought process that our little precious ones are exhibiting to us, make me cringe.

I don't who this is more exciting for, either for our children or for us as we face the fact that there is life after child rearing.